It’s remarkable what a common cold can do to one’s brain after having lots of sleep and drowning in scrunched up used bog roll. (Gross I know)
New Year’s Day. Always a funny one in my eyes. I always imagine the nation in complete zombie mode after the festive season has put them through, some people might say, a ravenous period of indulgence.
Nevertheless, our poor souls have sat slumped in front of the telly watching shit films and compiling a productive New Years resolution list together. Which looks something like this:
1. Join gym
2. Eat healthily
3.Dry January (attempt)
4. Drink lots of water
5. Save save save …
Yeh I know right? January has always been a bit of a dull month, not to mention half my family has their birthdays in January so number 5 can come off my list for another month.
It’s crazy to think that this time last year I was in Australia with my boyfriend and his family. I was a little worse for wear but that hangover definitely beats the cold and chest infection I currently have this year. I saw 2019 in stone cold sober which was a surreal moment for me seeing as the last few years I’ve woken up not remembering a thing. But hey, at least I didn’t have my head in a bin this year regretting the percentage of alcohol consumed.
The reason I thought I’d write this is that I’ve noticed a lot of us speaking about self-love. Whether you found it last year or you’re only just putting it into action for 2019, I too am on the path to find self-love.
2018 has been an insane year for me. I’ve learned a lot. Gained some lifelong friends via the out favorite and most loved social media platform… Guessed it? Oh, you’re too clever! Of course, Instagram has become a portal for many opportunities for me. I’ve gained a part-time job as well as some people I’d call some of my best friends, I’ve found that I have a niche for creating Lightroom presets and I bloody love taking photos and creating content.
One thing I never found really was self love. I mean, I am happy. I am very happy and I have never been in a place before within myself to say that I am fully content. However, I also seem to have got so warped in this little app that I have forgotten to look after my physical and mental health.
Self-love isn’t about looking in the mirror at the vanity. To me, it’s working out who you really are and where you see yourself in 5 years time.
This year I am looking forward to reading a good book and putting my phone down after 9 pm without fail.
This year I am looking forward to heading down to the gym after work and at the weekends and looking after my body.
This year is the year I will travel. I want to look up from my phone and see the world more.
This year I will fill my bullet journal up and educate myself.
This year I will find self-love before anything.
I wrote a blog post this time last year about social media and how our generation has become so involved in these tiny little squares. A parallel universe between expectation and reality. I am smacking myself for almost forgetting my own words I wrote!
Upon reflection, 2018 has been a rather eventful one to the day the least. I moved in with my two best friends, boogied at festivals, I started earning money through my blogging and even switched jobs.
It’s been a crazy year for every one of us.
Brexit has swamped news headlines, whilst we had the beast from the East back in March and thank fuck he left! Will we experience the beast from the east part 2 March 2019? In Summer we encountered quite the sweatiest heatwave in recorded history. We even saw 12 boys rescued from a cave back in June… I bet you forgot that one didn’t you!
We almost made football history since 1966 as we played Croatia in the Semifinals…
We had ANOTHER Royal wedding, which made most watched tv history. Although it didn’t quite grip me, I think I was preoccupied with a glass of Prosecco at Pergola on the roof in Paddington.
2017 seems so very far in the past yet it seems that only yesterday myself and my best friend Zoe said that turning 25 would be our year. A year to remember and a year of big things.
So I sit here this evening writing for the first time in just over a month (bad me) thinking about what 2019 will bring.
Note to self:
I want you to read this back at the end of the year (set reminder on mobile for a years time with funky alarm tune) and write a list of everything you have achieved just like the below list for 2018 and give yourself a round of applause.
I’d like to hope that you’re reading this in the same spot that you wrote this – In the comforts of your bed. Here are a few of your achievements:
⁃You started earning money through your passion
⁃You moved in with your two best friends
⁃You hit 10K then 15K by your birthday
⁃You’ve started a new job in social media marketing which you love
⁃You didn’t learn Spanish like you said you would in 2017 but you gave it a good go! You can order 5 beers and that’s okay!
⁃You’ve learned to keep organized
⁃Thank goodness, that little savings bank has finally started to fill up!
⁃Through blogging you’ve made some lifelong friends
⁃It’s the first year you haven’t struggled for money or been in debt
⁃You’ve found a new hobby keeping a bullet journal and have got back into art.
⁃Finally got to go to Reading Festival
So what will 2019 bring?
As 2018 free to an end I’ve learned one huge thing. Self-love. I sometimes forget to love myself. A lot of the time I’m hard on myself and forget about all the things I have achieved and all the things I am working towards.
⁃Join the gym
⁃Eat more greens
⁃Drink more water
⁃Head off to more events
⁃Spend more time with loved ones and friends
⁃Switch off from Social media at 9 pm
⁃Be blogging part-time
⁃Get to 50K by the summer
⁃Find your niche – Could it be editing and inspo? Could it be happiness and self-love?
⁃Pre plan more flat lays for lifestyle work
⁃Expand my preset catalog
⁃Save £10,000 by the summer
⁃Utilise more vouchers
– Set to separate savings account for that future mortgage
⁃Take every day as it comes
⁃Count your blessings
⁃ A problem shared is a problem halved
Work and blogging are great and has helped with a lot of things but I always need to remind myself why I started in the first place.
To spread positivity and happiness but to also share real experiences and stories and to create a bank full of memories.
So really this message is a reminder to myself but also to everyone and anyone.
Don’t forget to love yourself first and the rest will follow.
Right, so I am off!
Time to unblock my nose and take some of that awful night nurse and hit the hay…
Sweet dreams and here’s to 2019! X